Truth be Told

I would like to start out by saying that I don't know specifics about my plans. But what I do know is very broad and life changing. I am literally sitting in a highschool classroom right now observing a teacher (part of my education program, and I want you to know that the students are all taking a test right now, this giving me the ability to blog right now).
So let me tell you what I do know: I know that I have a purpose. I know that He has a perfect plan for me. I know that walking in obedience, "walking by faith" is how my life will be satisfied. I know that I want to serve and be active in His kingdom. I know that in my heart I would go to the corners of the earth to share Love with people. I know that I want to see His return. I know that I want to spend eternity with my perfect Father. I know that I want a wife. I know that I want to have kids. I know that I am loved. I know that my family has contributed, molded, influenced, and has changed my life. I know that it hurts sometimes to cry. I know that I have experienced the Holy Spirit in my life. I know that I know very little. I know that Jesus is alive.
So why do I say all of these things that seem to be so nonsensical?
When I am isolated from God, I experience and go down some of the most dificult roads. But when I am in the presence, near, close whatever you want to call it, I come alive! What a beautiful moment. But that's what I hate, is that they are just moments, glimpses, short time experiences. Truth be told though, is that one day (hopefully soon) it won't be a glimpse or passing moment!
Well let me get back around to the point. I would love to be a college minister to international students. I would love to teach in a high school classroom.
So that's where I am, have been for awhile now. My friend quoted a book to me that said something along the lines of "faith isn't faith unless it's continally being tested and it is all you hold onto when you wake upon the morning". Living by faith, means what to me? You have faith because of what you've heard, which for me is found hidden in His word. And in His word, He has written a story of promises tome. But where I fail, is when I choose not to listen or harden my heart to those promises.